in that moment...

in the silences

a question of love
what does it mean
how far are we willing to go
love can give you the strength to survive through the worst challenge
you have had to face till now
love can also drift away
and disappear into the darkness
leaving you empty
with nothing to fill the void
the spaces in between
but how do we measure love
when in a split second everything changes
from a time when there was hope
when it seemed that things were looking so much better now
than ever before
so much better than when we were trying to kill ourselves
believing that this time it will be different
but nothing really changes
a lesson failed
a lesson never learnt
doomed to repeat the mistakes we have made in the past
too many reasons
why it seems inevitable that we will fail
but love is merely those moments
and it takes a master weaver
to bind them all together
but we are now lost more than ever before
when nothing seems real
its all fake and everyone is just pretending to be something they are not
when anything can happen at any point in time
to remind me that it was all but a dream
but i will admit that i keep buying into the fantasy
hoping beyond all hope
that someday it will all make sense
that all the sacrifices have been worth it
i don't believe they have any idea
of what love really means
of the effect it has had on all our lives
how it has driven people to lengths that they would never have crossed before
if it had not been for the love
that blinded them
from seeing the forest for the trees
but so do we all fall pray to the power of love
buying into the illusion of love
i have only known one moment of sanity
when love did not exist within me
when i was void of any feelings
when i was not controlled by the emotions
that always end up getting me into situations
that i was never prepared for
i don't know what is real
and what the truth is supposed to be

but what is real and what is fake
when pain has become the only truth we all know
and i would rather choose a life without pain
not feeling that all hope has been lost

so you can take this heart from me
you can take the wisdom from me to know what the difference is
between right and wrong
you can take all the love from me
because what purpose does it serve
when life is so fleeting
and in a moment everything changes
the only chance we have to hold on to that perfect moment
is to capture it
but how can you hold on
when that moment fades away too quickly
and i am tired of trying to hold on to
that which was never mine in the first place
why must i keep fighting to hold on
when i am the only one still holding my hand out
while the rest of the world has left me alone here in the dark
its not worth getting invested
when everything is one sided
this might seem like the musings of a disillusioned soul
but the reality is
that nothing is truly as it seems
and even though i would so much want to believe the lie
the truth is all that i am left with
in the silence
i know nothing is real...